I went to church service today, invited by a good friend of mine. To attend a "bible study" session. Which turns out, he didn't included that there will be a quiz on the bible AFTER the study to get me interested. LoL. So, it was an ambush. And it was a fun and cheerful meeting in the end. But me, I am not going on the content of my religion, nor about the content we studied.
It's about the youthful thought I have when I see those juniors. They are happy, fun loving, and friendly. Most part I like, friendly. I forgot how to welcome friendliness and such after going through depressions and dealing with bad mouth loud screaming adults. *cough*. I love every second of the meeting. It was refreshing, and telling me that life can be better, and that there's always a brighter side of life. It leaves me smiling. We don't want to hang out with people that drains us, it's better off with those that encourage us. Those that welcomes us. It just keeps me going. People say that reality is cruel. Yes, it does. And it wasn't all rainbow and sun shine and unicorn. People say its childish. But.. really. To let yourself believe that this world is dark, corrupted and hopeless, and to let yourself think that the world is beautiful and full of joy. I would rather pick the later. Reason? If you have convinced yourself that the reality is cruel and there's a lot of devils and backstabber lurks, it's hard to go on. That's the thought of depression kicks in. Why dwell in the darkness and let the sorrow grips you... We can't escape our own mind, but we can change our thoughts.
I know, being positive is a wishful thinking, and that wonderful place might not exist. But WE can choose to create that place. By being with people who welcomes us. That's the place where the sun shine the brightest.
I am not going to say that you can only find such environment in church. No, there's a lot of place you could look at. But for me. Church is one of them. I remember back in university. My life was stressful, and sometimes, depressing as well. I always hang out with my friends at church, we have a lot of fun together. Getting older and we got separated by life. I do miss those days. I really do.
And then, it also brings me to my lifes in uni. Man, it was something. I had to work my ass off school project and programming until 3 or 4 am in the morning. OR sometimes, never sleep for 2 days. But for a student, at night when the clock strikes 12am, it's just starting. The internet got busy, and the food stall getting crowded. I went along with the flaw, it was something to love. haha. Exam was stressful, but after that, it's party time. I would play all day long with my gang even after not sleeping for 2 days. LOL, I can still go on! The whole area would became empty because people went back to their hometown, even the shop houses, we could literally walk in the middle of the road and there will be no cars. It's a ghost town, but it was fun. Of course, not recommend staying there too long or you might see something that isn't there (kidding). We have holiday break then, where at that time I was able to set up my own goal, projects and such. 3 months. baby, it was so much fun that it was becoming hard to go back to school. Then, the cycle continue.. haha.
Seeing where I am now.... It's really hard not to think about what I had. Though I wished I could turn back time, and enjoy a better university life. Cuz my university life. Is not that great enough. Yep. It wasn't. My gang I hang out, isn't that active in outdoor. They all focus on gaming. Which was fun, but when you think about it.... an outdoor activity would had been more better choices. We are enjoying, but... there can be more to that. Because like I've said. Once you close those games you played for hours, everything you've achieved, will go with it. It's fun though, I admit.
Now seeing those juniors, whenever I had the chance, I will tell them:
"Enjoy life while you can..."