So.... Promotion huh?

Lately. I've just been promoted. back to the post I previously worked as an assistant. And personally, I hate that job very much. Not because its hard, because I have to deal with a lot of ass-like persons.

Project engineer.... who specialize in bringing the team together in building a ship. Is to deal with contractor and owner.

The boss originally said it is a very easy task as compared to other vessel because its smaller. And yes, it's very small. At that stage, I am thrilled. As given the opportunity as the post is higher and, what's more the vessel are easier.. However, there's a catch, dealing with ass-like people, that, I can't get it out of my mind.

Then... shit happens. I was forced to take an even bigger vessel, and to deal with the contractor I hate one year ago. It felt like shit.

And for the past one week, I've been dealing with them. Yes, they are VERY ass-like as before. Even if you're just asking a question that need an answer, they will raise their voice, shoot you a cold stare, and spoke with threatening sarcasm. One wrong word and they will shoot foul word at you right in the face in front of everyone. These are barbaric people with low education level. The problem is that the words are hurtful, and that it happens in front of many people. That's the problem. In front of many people.

Project engineer is considered the boss of production process. If he/she falls, well.. so does the rest of the team. Now, I've seen 2 senior before me. They are very strong, stood firm, held back and redirect the fire back to the contractor each time. For me.... well... Not that good.

If the team before me sees the leader failing... well, so will they and so will the ship's production process. It sucks. I am not that kind of person who is not afraid to offend others. But.... I don't see any other choices, which means, I have to change. For the worst or the better. Time will see it through.

There's a couple of time of which I feel like crying. lol. Shit. seriously, the pressure, the stares, and the weight of each decision needed to make within seconds, with the contractor shouting at you while you trying to focus. It really sucks.

Well.. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, right? Gotta... survive this shit.